The Ghost of you and me.

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

The Ghost Of You and me.

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Calvin Matthew
18
Cancer
FRIENDSTER.
Some things that you ought to know bout me.
I dont give a F**K what you think bout me.
I am me,and no1 will change it.
I'm cruel in my language and i may hurt your feelings with it.
Dont get on my wrong side.
Once your there,there is no ticket returning to the other side.
Dont you even dare point a finger at me without any points.
Never judge me. I hate when people do that.
Erm,what more.ask me if you have any question..

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Coldwindz Basecode.
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The song: Ghost of you and me.
All the changes in my blog has been done by my lil sis EQA.Thank you so so MUCH!!!

Other

, I love my GOD
ALLAH
I love my Family.
MoM -a person whom i'm
thankful for giving
birth to me
Sister Fadilah Hanim-always kind to me
Brother Shahirin -life wont be the
same without you
I love my Aunties&Uncle.
Aunty Far&Husband -You guys are the best
Mami&Husband -nice to related
Uncle&Wife -nice to be related
Mak Ngah&Husband -I luv you guys
Paman Zali&Wife -you guys are the coolest
Uncle Dik&Wife -nice to be with you guys
Cik Nah&Husband -nice to be related
I love my Cuzzins.
Ayu -I love you so much
Kak Erli -Cool to be related to you
Mira -Watsup DOK!!
AJE -Your the best Adek
sedare
Kak Aidah Dedek -Fun to be with
Kak Ean -WoW
Abg Mamat -Cool
Arwahnye -I missed you so much
i wish your still here
with us. :(
Shirin -Best friendster design
adviser
Shamin -The cutest cuzzin
Jaja -Your a GOTH&I'm an EMO.
Ina -Hey Watsup!!
Suhaila -Best Motivator
Rafiq -Best Dealer
Ita -Pleasent moments with
you in the past
Afiq -your one of a kind
I Love My Blood Brothers and Sisters.
Shikin -Love you
Iskandar -Your the Best
Sharizad -I dont have to say
what i have to say
I love my friends.
Hafiz -Where are you???
Kamini -What would i ever do
without you
Vera -Your my dumbo
Richard -Haiz Sian Lah
Yuen Chung -Buddy
Siok Huan -I miss you
Ken Low -i can't believe you
quit DOTA
Siti Sarah -12 APRIL!!!
Mista -Where are you???
Syahrum -Idk what to write
Mr Iszal -I miss fighting with
Vea -I've yet to take a pic
with you
Shahrana -What are best friends
for???
NabNab " -always the cheerful 1
Nadiah -Nice to talk with
Lut -You make her cry,
i kill you
Nazmul -i'm sorry i broke your
lighter
Ethan -nice to meet you
Edward -Bro...
Ah Chun -HI
Benny -ERM
Eustance -Miss talking to you
Ryan -Eh HI..
Bon -...
Zaii -:)
Fir -Haiz
Sham -Bradder
Ayam -Brother in-law
Eqa -My Lil SIS
Azie -My 2nd lil SIS
Cika -My Purple Dino
WanDee -Thanks for making
me shake
Adiq -Should learn how to
talk
Shafiq -Joker
Faizal -Senior
Alex -I love ur dressing
Ain -My Jembe Teacher
Epool -Golden Monkey Which
Needs to be tot
Veron -Shake it Shake it
Shake it
Alicia -Our Hair Rox
Sutinah -Your my BEST FRIEND
Other People
Afiq Rezza -Never regreted meeting you
Intan -Never regreted meeting you
Brason -Never regreted meeting you
If i forgot anyone else,do tell{:

CalvinM is BACK!!!

Thursday, August 27, 2009

There is so much to tell

So many things have happen

And it has been such a long time since i BLOG

I don't even know where to begin

Well,i guess i just have to start with this...

CalvinM is back in ACTION

I'll type another time...

Read with you soon...

9:49 AM

Things I've Learned in LIFE

Monday, May 4, 2009

I've learned that we don't have to change friends,If we understand that friends change.

I've learned that something that you do in an instant, can give you heartache for life.
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I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words; It may be that last time you see them.

I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I've learned that either you control your attitude, or it controls you
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I've learned that my best friend and I , can do anything or nothing and still have a good time.

I've learned that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you are down, will be the one who helps you get up.

I've learned that sometimes when i am angry i have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

I've learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experinces you've had and what you learned from them, and less to do with how many years you have lived.

I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others, but sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I've learned that just because two people argue, doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do love each other.

I've learned that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret, it may change you life forever.

I've learned that sometimes the people that you love most in life, are taken from you too soon.

I've learned that you can't make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved, and the rest is up to them.

I've learned that no matter how much i care, some people just don't care back.

I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and just seconds to destroy it.

I've learned that it's not what you have in life, but who you have that counts.

I've learned that you can keep going, long after you think you can't.

I've learned that there are people who love you dearly, but just don't know how to show it.

I've learned that even when you feel you have no more to give, a friend cries out and you find the strength to help.

I've learned that our backgrounds and circumstances may have influenced our lives, but we are responsible for who we become.

9:41 AM

CalvinM BACK on BLOGGER

Saturday, April 18, 2009

I'm wondering how a blog in the internet can Collect duSt???

....AmaziNg isn'T it....

so..wHy have i nOt beeN blOgginG

i'Ll give you 3 eXcuses and you decidE for yourseLf

1.MY LAPTOP BROKE DOWN

2.I'M TO BUSY WITH THINGS

3.I JUST CAN'T BE BOTHERED TO UPDATE IT

.....AnywayS.....

my bLood is rushing hiGh

as touGh i have taKen IcE

lots of nEw fishEs sWimming in the poNd

AICARAMBA

so Besides that,Nothing interesting Is happening

Ouh Wait

mayBe there iS

the Ice block betweEn me and the soul Percussionist(My batCh)

has beeN melteD

we are boNding as we speAk

We have hang out....LATE a couPle of times

anD i must say

i miss Doing it

feelS great to do it ALL over again

but,this time,I knoW my LimiTs

no morE crossing the RED line

the Last time i Did it i almost wracKed the relationShip betWeen

ME AND MY FAMILY

but i have to admit

i Will noT havE to woRRy bout crossinG the RED line

COZ

i mixIng with the RIGHT friends

TATA FOR NOW

10:40 AM

i'm TIRED

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Sorry guys

been busy lately

tought of updating my blog after the exams

but my grandpa had a heart-attack

his lungs is filled with phlem and water

so they had to suck it out thru a tube which lasted for two days in MICU

seeing him being like that was sad

so much pain had to endure

but now he has been transfered to a normal ward

AMIN

and is recovering

so good to hear his voice talking and laughing

tough i may not show my worriedness to my family members

deep inside

my brain was in a mess

haiz

today went to see him

his ok

but the phlen that he coughs out was a lil bloody

the doctors took it away

to "examine" it

the dogs will be telling us why is it so and so tomorrow

so thats about it....

I'M NOT DEAD.....JUZ BEEN BUSY

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DEAR GOD

PLS LET NOTHING BEFALL ON MY GRANDFATHER

HIS THE ONLY GRAND PARENT I HAVE LEFT

I WANT HIM TO WITNESS MY MARRIAGE

TO SEE ME WALKING DOWN THE RED CARPET

I WANT TO SEE HIM SMILE ON MY SPECIAL DAY

IS THAT TO MUCH TO ASK

AMIN

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btw

i found this interesting mail

read it.....its hilarious.

...................................CALVIN-M.........................................

1. Nite - Sleep with air-con; Day - Bathe with heater on

2. Day - Cannot Wake up; Nite - Cannot Sleep

3. Cigarettes - Convenient to buy; not convenient to smoke

4. Chewing Gum - Can Chew, Cannot buy?? (Restricted to buying)

5. Smell Of rubbish besides letterboxes; Rubbish inside Letterbox

6. Private Cars - Cheaper & Cheaper to Buy, harder & harder to maintain

7. Education - Teachers teaching Less but expects students to learn More

8. High-tech barbaric singaporeans - know how to use state-of-the art equipment, but dunno how to use a simple dustbin or a toilet

9. There are quite a number of rich/poor in spore - They have Car, Credit Card, CPF .... but no Cash and lots of loans

10. Translation is needed between Singaporean Chinese and Mainland Chinese

11. Sporean never like to vote, but like to complain

12. Half Sporeans rushed to buy Hello kitty, but the other half busy killing stray cats

...............................CALVIN-M...............................

Happiness keeps you Sweet, Trials keep you Strong, Sorrow keeps you Human, Failure Keeps you humble and Success keeps you glowing, but only Faith & Attitude Keeps you going..... "

8:23 AM

ACHING ME

Sunday, February 22, 2009

I'm aching in all places

after riding the bicyce for a long time from 1 end of east coast to the other end

to Mac and back to the Pit

and sending the bic back

OUCH

my BUTT really hurts

my knee's feels like they are gonna fall off

a sleepless night full of riding and smoking

TOUGH me and my cuzzins suffer the pain now

BUT

we had FUN

and we had LAUGHTER

so it was a no regret kinda thing

and in the morning

Taufik and Nikmat wanted to leave

but it was block due to he OCBC bike race thing

the security that the OCBC hire

really need to be tot a LESSON

so STUCK UP

alamak

PER!!!

AND THE SIGNS

it says

CARPARK CLOSE

but they never say the road was close

so Taufik and Nikmat had to wait

call the hotline they say they will send and escot but they never came

i left them for a while,go send my bicycle

come back

THEY ARE STILL THERE

wat is this???

SINGAPORE prioratise on customer service

BUT WAT THE FUCK IS OCBC DOING???

haiz

but overall we all still had fun

especially when ME,MISS ELLY,AJ,and MIRROR

went on the last bicycle ride

4 people

3 bikes

TOTAL WACK/FUN

haha

BTW

one of my friends brother was actually hospitalize

coz he had a lump on his left cheek

so lets all take a small moment

to pray for his well beings OKEY

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so thats it for now...till next time

6:50 AM

14th Fe-16th Feb

Monday, February 16, 2009

a COUPLE of days ago

in every CORNER of the world

the ATMOSPHERE was filled with LOVE

VALENTINE

and i have a CONFESSION to make here

i got a HEART from someone

FOR VALENTINE!!!

IF any of you guys were to see me LATELY

you would see its on my NECK

BUT

i have to get this 1 FACT stated

YES,i am in love,but NO, i'm not in a relationship

i ADMIRE that you actualli got it for me

but

i never TOUCH my love TWICE

AWWWWW

So how did i CELEBRATE my valentine???

erm

went out in the MORNING

WATCH movie

afternoon go to my GRANDPA'S house

and thats it

no FURTHER DETAILS shall be given

NENI-NENI-PU-PU

haha

how CHILDISH could i be???

OKEY

so moving ON

today i got PISSED of by my group member's

the LEADER said that he wants to present the hardest part for our PROJECT MANAGEMENT

and what i said was,WHY?

his ans,damn BLOOD-BOILING

"I want to show teacher my KNOWLEDGE"

i had enough of all this things

YES,i know you want to PROVE that your the best

go AHEAD

i dont give a damn about it

BUT

why do you want to SHOW teacher your knowledge

when u put like less then 10% of your"knowledge" into the group???

as a leader,your have certain RESPONSIBILITY and COMMITMENT

but i dont see that happening

i'm not trying to be cruel or anything

BUT ITS HARD CORE FACTS

where were you when i was doing the powerpoint SLIDES???

where where you when NADIA was editing the powerpoint slides???

where were you when NADIA was writing the scripts???

where were you when NAZMUL was compiling the video???

AND NEVER HAVE I HEARD YOU SAID

"HEY,LETS MEET TO DISCUSS (PM)

ERGH

AND YOUR FRIEND,LAGI BAGUS

OUH,i cant meet

i can MEET any days but not on --------

CANT YOU JUZ SACRIFICE 1 FUCKING DAY

just for the sake of this project???

just this 1 day

not everyweek on that day

JUST THIS 1 DAY for only 1 time

next week presentation

how prepared are you guys???

do you guys know that we are presented as a group

not as a solo PERSON

one mistake done by 1 PERSON

every member suffer.

its too late to REGRET
and i never regret mthe choices that i made in my LIFE
so i'll just have to

make do with the FACT that i have you mmm as my group members

and suffer every moment init.

I WILL NOT HESITATE TO ANS ANY QUESTION MISS LYNA SHOOTS AT US ABOUT OUR GROUP

i WILL NOT let my marks suffer just becoz some people are irresponsible.

MARK MY WORDS

ITS A WHOLE NEW ME

A WHOLE NEW SIDE

YOU MAY NEVER SEEN IT

BUT I HAVE UNLEASH IT BEFORE

AND I WILL DO IT AGAIN.

5:25 AM

The scar still BURNS in my HEART

Monday, February 9, 2009

My scar still BURNS to think of it

the words that he use BROKE the GLASS image of myself into MILLIONS of PIECES

and now i feel like an ORPHAN

"IF YOUR LIKE THIS,I WOULD RATHER HAVE YOU DEAD"

and even

"HIS SICK?WHAT DOES HE THINK I DO?GROW MONEY ON TREES?GO POLY-CLINIC"

those were the words out of his mouth

did i ask to be SICK?

I'm A BURDEN to him

yet i ask

why bring me to LIFE

why DECIDE to have another CHILD

if you only bring UNHAPPINESS to him/her

in this case,him,ME

YES

my FATHER said those words to ME

and EXPECT me to just forget whatever HE said the END of the DAY

how can a SON

forget those WORDS

i have never been so HURT in my ENTIRE life

i've been keeping this MATTER for to long in me

and its just WIDENING the SCAR DEEPER

to THINK that

a child which is a GIFT of happiness for every PARENTS

has now become a BURDEN

so why shud I talk to him if i am considered DEAD and i'm a burden??

up till DATE he has OFFERED me money twice

a tactic in WHICH i use to fall into

BY using MONEY,anyone in my family can SOFTEN my HEART so that I would FORGIVE

but as the YEARS pass

i GREW up in so many WAYS

that i took a DECISION this TIME

i will NOT forgive HIM

and when the TIME comes

I'll go without LOOKING back at what happens TO him

Call me a HEARTLESS son

but i have the right to do it

yes i am still UNDER his ROOF

yes i am still EATING his MONEY

BUT he said the words

I'm A BURDEN

WOULD RATHER HAVE ME DEAD THEN ALIVE

so dont try and get back to me

consider me dead

OLD MAN

you only have a daughter and a son

this is my confession to the whole word

as i can no longer keep it to myself

YOU ABOVE ALL SHUD KNOW WHAT THIS MEANS

'WHAT GOES AROUND,COMES BACK AROUND,AND IT WILL BE WORST'

5:58 AM

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ACHING ME

14th Fe-16th Feb

The scar still BURNS in my HEART